Hello Change

It's interesting how one month can be so different from the last. My last post was a little premature and I feel now that a different transition might happen. This is a time in my life when I have many options (though limited by the economy) and can go down various paths. And while I don't consider myself an overly impulsive person, the urge to be in New York has never been as strong and real as it has right now.

Funny now that New York is where I want to be when a month or two ago, I felt otherwise. Maybe I just didn't want to handle the cold though I think I've become okay with it since I've had to deal with a much colder than usual San Francisco anyway.

I've been thinking about what's best for me in my life recently. I've been going through life day by day because I've been so overwhelmed with work and side projects that I couldn't see more than two weeks ahead and that's such a strange feeling for me since when it comes to my life, I like to be centered and have control.

I have since finished the bulk of projects thus giving me more time to focus on myself. In the clarity, I thought about what my next step in life would be and a lot of things kept drawing me to the idea of moving away from home and what better place than New York. I feel I need a change of pace, of setting.. There were many times I've felt stuck here where I find myself easily being comfortable at home with family and friends, and I want to be more independent.

Even if I struggle, I don't think it will be a bad thing. Even if I'm living paycheck to paycheck and on a diet of cup ramen, I'll make do. This isn't a point in my life when I want to be comfortable or stagnant; I want that spontaneity.

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